LOL somehow i just felt the urge of naming this entry as 'spin spin spin :p'..
quite random and childish i think.. haha
anyways.. i just felt like God has taken my life in a spin :)..
everything has happened so fast.. Within a year i've manage to go through a LOt A LOT of things !! A mountain of problems but a flood of miracles =] !
Funny how when we are faced by a tonne of problems, we tend to forget that He is BIGGER MUCH BIGGER than all of it combine?
We would become so narrow minded and be so focused to it as if there is no way out.
Truth is sometimes, there is no way out... But hey, Who is the God that we serve?
He is our El Shaddai !! He is God Almighty !! With Him nothing is impossible, nothing is too difficult for Him =] !!
I have learned not to be the way i was anymore, i have stopped becoming that worryward :p... When i had a car crash, an argument with a good friend, failed grades all at once, I broke down crying. It was as if the world was all against me. It was as though everything around me had collapsed and fell on top of me with a BANG..
Surely, that is not how God had planned it to be in my life. It was more of a wake up call to me. He wants me to start taking things really2 seriously. He wants me to stop just 'doing' things. But He wants me to really be driven with a purpose when im doing my daily activities, even if it's just going out shopping for groceries. He wants me to start taking my life to a bigger level.
Funny how it took me a car crash to stop me being the way I was and changing my direction. But i'm glad that it happened :). at least nobody got hurt, except for my bank account :p..
All the more, I learned something else as well from these unfortunate happenings..
I have managed to not be as worried as i had been before. What I used to do if these things had happened was that I would immediately call every single one of my friends that I knew could help me somehow. But NO. I went straight into my room, knelt down on my knees, cried heavily and calling out unto Him =]...
>Acts 2:21
"And everyone who calls
on the name of the Lord will be saved."
i cried for a good hour, tissues are everywhere and i looked definitely terrible. But what comforts me is that God is there. He was really there, I could just feel His presence. It was a warm fuzzy feeling that He gave me every time I cried unto Him. I am comforted just knowing that He IS listening =] !! I am comforted knowing that with His right hand, He is upholding me. That there is nothing that I should fear since I am so close and wrapped in His arms.
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand
This time, I know that He is in control =]. I know that in all things He is working for my good (Romans 8:28). I trust in Him that I am walking in His path and all these unfortunate events that is happening around me are nothing too big for Him to handle. But that does not mean that I didnt cry about it for a few times. I certainly did. But in my prayers, I always say thank You for everything that You have done in my life. I trust in You Daddy, I trust in all of Your ways, I trust that soon all of this will be over. Please make it quick, please deliver me from all of these soon. Strengthen my heart to go through all of this. I am waiting to see the works of Your hand upon this Daddy. in Jesus name, Amen.
Well what will be in your prayers? It can be anything right ? For the Father wants you to cast ALL your anxieties to Him for He cares for You (1 Peter 5:7). Whether its anger, sadness, bitterness, envy, anything.. cast it all upon Him for He cares for You.
Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest
I am writing this blog, to give u a piece of my walk with Him. To give you an insight of how His love has captured my life and that He managed to turn everything around and made it even better than I had imagined or wished it to be =].
I am free in His love, I am joyful and thankful for where His mercy and grace had brought me to. Believe that He is listening to our every prayers, Believe that He cares and LOVES us so much. Ask Him to reveal more of His love in Your life, ask Him to help You turn things around for He IS MORE than ABLE =] !
I love my God, I love Him with all my heart and I want more and more of Him in my life ! I am praying that each one of us will be His living testimony, that there are just a numerous things that He has done in our lives. We are unable to ever repay Him coz we are simply unable to. Because He is God and we are just humans, that would be silly to ever think that we could repay Him. BUT we could simply share to one another of His love, make it known to others of His love, that this is simply our way to thank Him. To show Him how grateful we are towards His works. To share our testimonies would bring honour and glory to Him. To share about Him would delight Him. And that is what I would Love to do with every day of my life as His one beloved daughter.
"To our God and Father be the glory for ever and ever. Amen:"
Philippians 4:20
=] <3 !