Monday, September 27, 2010

Your last fb message for me for 2 months :)

"On this day of your life, Amanda, we believe God wants you to know ... that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes. Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. Feel deeply into your heart, and then you will know the truth. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for?"

Take me deeper God? doesnt matter whatever happens, I will still love You and I will keep praising You :) . You are my amazing Daddy !! Thank You for everything :). Love You !! Amen

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Love Seeks not its own =]...

A lovely quote on love by John Piper....

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
"Love is patient, love kind, and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. "

Love seeks not its own (v.5)

"a massive craving in our hearts must die, if we are going to love."

A Call to Love . . . and to Death

  • Being long-suffering means dying to the desire for an untroubled life.
  • Having no jealousy means dying to the desire for unshared affection.
  • Not boasting means dying to the desire to call attention to our successes.
  • Not acting unbecomingly means dying to the desire to express our freedom offensively.
  • Not seeking our own way means dying to the dominance of our own preferences.
  • Not being easily provoked means dying to the need for no frustrations.
  • Not taking account of wrongs means dying to the desire for revenge.
  • Bearing all things and enduring all things means dying to the desire to run away from the pain of obedience.
http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/resources/dying-as-a-means-of-loving-part-2

dying to self and alive to Love is the key :) !!! How amazing is Your love towards us =]...
Dear Lord I know You are trying to tell me something, and You have opened up my mind and my eyes and You will help me through this. I need Your strength in me :). Thank You Lord for Your guidance, in Jesus name, I will learn to love like how You have loved me. I will no longer seek things to become my own, I will do whatever I can to value things for others more than myself. For if I have not love then I have gain nothing =]... I love You Daddy, SO SO SO MUCH !! Thank You for Your amazing grace and abundance of blessings in my life, I dont know what I would do without You here in my life. Jesus You are my sanctuary =]. Thank You Daddy and I will keep praising Your name for all is good, and all is well in Your perfect and pleasing will. I know that everything happens for a reason and that reason is good for me :). Thank You Daddy !! AMen =]...

ps: Holy Spirit fill me more and more, I welcome You into the deepest part of my soul, take over all of me and make it Your sanctuary, make it all Yours, make it Your home =]. in the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

Meditate and a new journey :D !!

Daddy !! I will meditate and learn a new thing from You again :),
I will learn to listen more now :D !! Speak loudly pleasee !! hahahah
Love You SOO MUCH DADDY !! I believe this is a start to another new journey with You !
Im so very excited and aw I will def fast facebook for 2 months and I know why :).
Thanks Daddy !! in Jesus name, AMen :) !! xoxo

Monday, September 20, 2010

Crash and Burn :(

Crash and burn, crash and burn.
My heart may fail but it doesn't matter anyway, I will keep rejoicing, I will keep worshiping and I will keep loving You :) ! For You see every tears I cried, for You have acknowledge the desires of my heart and You reign in all the Earth. My God You reign in all the Earth :) !
You have made all things beautiful in Your own time and I would love to see what's going to happen next. I would love to see this work of art that You are creating in my life when it has been completed. I would love to see the impressions that You've been giving me to become true. I love all of those impressions Daddy, they are so beautiful and more beautiful that I would ever had imagined. Especially that dress :) :D !! hehehe... My dear God, I Love You with all my heart and let me do well for You. I will give all that I am and all that I have left as an offering to You. That everything may not bring joy into my life right now, but I trust in You, I trust that my joy is only because of You and only You are the One that is worth all of me. Only You are the one that is worthy of my life. Only You are the One that is worth my tears, only You are the one that i will smile upon every single second of my life. I have this overflowing joy and love out of my heart, it just keep flowing like a river that doesnt stop flowing. I thank You oh Holy Spirit for Your guidance forever in my life. And I wanna be whatever You want me to be Daddy, I want Your annointing to fall down on us oh God. We thank You Lord for Your great work. In the name of Jesus, we give thanks and celebrate for You are always and always is good :), Amen. LOve You sOOO MUCH DADDY :D !! Thank You for Your loving embrace >3< !! Amen :D !! xoxo

>..< !!

Daddy help me to study and manage my feelings well..
I love You and will still Love You even in this mess.
I trust my life into Your hands I believe in You and that everything will turn out to be good :).
Help me do well in my studies, Love You Daddy :) !! AMEN !!

Friday, September 17, 2010

The Knot...

Lord I believe in You, I believe in Your love for me
and I believe in the things that You have spoken to me.
Its not about the knot, Its the fact that You really really care for me :)
Its the fact that You really2 do love me :) ! I love You too Daddy,
I will write more and glorify Your name with my life :)...
Love You my Daddy !!! AMEN !! :)

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Total Forgiveness

Have you ever wondered if you have really forgiven every single person that has done you wrong? I didn’t. It did not matter to me. I never found the intrinsic value of total forgiveness or how to actually forgive someone completely. It was only until recently that God has really moulded my character and gave me the revelation about total forgiveness. I was put in such a situation that I probably had every right to just blame every single thing on this person for what has happened. But that is not how Jesus lived right? He could have just left the cross that He was carrying on the ground and sent for 1000 angels to fly him back to heaven if He wanted to or what most of us would have done anyway. I mean why should we bother sacrificing for people that is persecuting us constantly? But God is gracious and His mercy endures forever that once He has forgiven us, He will move forward and never look back. He knew all that has happened yet to Him you are as clean as a blank sheet of paper, that you are holy and blameless in His sight (Colossians 1:22), that you are white as snow (Isaiah 1:18). This means that He does not remember your sins because once you repented then to Him you are made righteous once again. You are perfect in His sight. That whatever you have done in the past, does not matter because when you are forgiven then you are forgiven! And if you keep asking him for forgiveness regarding the same sin, He doesn’t know what you are talking about!

Now Christianity is all about us having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ Himself and the stories that we read about Jesus in the bible tells us of how Jesus behaved in the circumstances that He was in. It is the way Jesus lives that God also wants us to learn from Him. He was fully human and fully God thus He faced every temptation and life’s complications as what we are facing now. (Without all the technological advancements though). That our God the father has sent Jesus as a man is for us to learn of how He truly designed us to live in this world according to His plan, that how Jesus lives shall be how we live as well. When we have a true relationship with God Himself, we will gradually be transformed by the renewal of our mind (Romans 12:2). That our life shall truly does reflect His glory by using the circumstances that we have and handle it the way our J.C. would have done it ! (J.C. =Jesus Christ for slow thinkers :p).

This is my understanding of my relationship with my God and this is the way I aim to live my life. Hence why when I was faced with this situation, I knew I had to forgive and yet it was very hard to do. This was truly a battlefield of my mind and my heart. Logically, the reality of the events did not really makes much sense for me to just let it all go as if it never happened. In my heart, I was so hurt and betrayed that it makes it even harder to yes once again let it all go?
Yes peace was not with me, joy was out of me and I was miserable than ever. I called the past to account again and again. I was never satisfied with what the other person has said or tried to do to amend things with me. I was blinded to all things that were good or positive out of this.

I was told that how would you know if you have really forgiven someone is when you would be able to bless this person. Hence that is what I did. Every single night I would pray for this person and bless them in whatever it is that they are doing. Until I actually meant it from the deepest of my heart that I truly bless them. It was hard at first coz all that is going through your head is every single bad thing that has been done to you. Yet I persevered in my faith that if God had first loved me as a sinner then I should also embraced this person the same way God had embraced me!

Familiar with that prodigal son story? (Luke 15:11-32) Wasn’t his father’s heart hurt when he asked for the inheritance? Yet when he came back home, his father actually RAN to embrace him, showered him with love by celebrating his return and thus BLESSING him with all the best things that his father had. His father accepted who his son was, loves him, accepts him with the way he is and blessed him! Notice that this all thing was done from his father’s side? The son was still the way he was, he might have came back but isn’t it just because he ran out of money and was not living the ideal life that he had in mind? Truth is the prodigal son was still the way he was =s.

The lesson I learnt from this story about the father’s forgiveness also is that the forgiving part must be done from our side. The father in this parable is blameless; he was not the one at fault. In our worldly point of view, we can say that he is the one that needs to be persuaded for forgiveness. But no instead, through all of that he stretched out his arms and ran to embrace his son. He was the one who made that step. Out of his love he was able to forgive, give back and even bless his son with even more riches. The son did not do anything that was worthy of all of these, nor did he try to make amends with his dad. He simply came back to his father’s house because his plan didn’t quite work out the way he thought it would.

Similarly I believe, God wants us to be able to embrace the people that have hurt us. He wants us to love, give and bless that person with all our hearts. He wants us to be the one who first stretch out our hands and use all of our might to run towards that person and embrace them. He wants us to be the one who makes that first step!

It doesn’t matter what place we hold in that circumstance, whether we are right or wrong but what matters to God should be what places the most important thing in our heart.

Thanks be to God that He is so gracious in my life, that all of these He revealed to me one by one. It took me a while to finally understand this whole lesson of total forgiveness, but I believe that His timing is always and always perfect. Through waiting and persevering in what I believe
God had wanted me to do in this situation, my character was being shaped. God had blessed me with this understanding, this revelation of God’s originally intended character in each one of us.

Even until really recently, He revealed that one last thing to me. One thing that I’ve already heard so many times but only became a revelation to me few days ago. It is what I have mentioned at the start of the note. It is that when Jesus forgave your sins, He moves forward with you and doesn’t look back. If you continue to ask for forgiveness about the same sin, He WOULDN’T KNOW what you are talking about. Simply because our sins has been wiped away! All these times, yes I have blessed them, yes I said that I have forgiven and I have let go. But when emotions boil over and things go awry, I would then bring back the past and get frustrated over it again and again. It’s like a never ending cycle and I didn’t get why I could not fully let go when I said I have forgiven and truly forgiven them from my heart. Then I realised, I may have moved forward but I kept on looking back. If I kept on looking back then how am I going to move forward, wouldn’t I keep stumbling? I wouldn’t move forward with firm steps because I wouldn’t be looking forward knowing and expecting what is ahead coz I kept on looking back?

Last step that I needed to take was to not call the past to account. Simply treat it as if it never happened. When you meet them again, it’ll just be like how you were with that person before any conflict ever happened. We know it happened but we don’t hold onto it as if it ever happened. We’re starting over, that other person in front of us is now blameless and we can build an even stronger relationship than before because now you are blessing that person. You are giving him even more riches =]. Now friends, that is what I believe total forgiveness is and that is what God has revealed to me. Hence learn to totally forgive, “For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you” (Matthew 6:14). That is the beauty of God’s work in our lives, He will continue to work through us and in us continuously being transformed into His likeness. How great really is Thou art!

Thank you for reading this seriously long note, and I hope whatever you get from this you will bring it back to Him and ask for your own personal revelation. I pray that His name may be glorified more and more in our lives.
To God be the glory forever and ever (Phillipians 4:20), Amen =]!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

That inner light...

"Even when you feel ugly or depressed or guilty or ashamed, there is an inner spark in you which is light. This light is your beauty. This light is your reflection of God. You are a child of God, thus you are beautiful"

I trust in You =] !

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Little quotes of the day

Your grace is bigger than my failures and my God is bigger than my problems =]

Better Today by Coffey Anderson =] !!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iDMqPVAD1jg

To see your face, to hear your voice
And oh, to touch you is a dream come true
So I'm standing here, with my hand held out
Knowing that your love will never fade, I stand amazed without a doubt

And I wanna hear your voice, in the morning when I rise
I think I know I'm just a normal man, only made of sand except when you're by my side
Will you love me, teach me, don't leave me I pray
And when I, and I'm thinking of the times
Your hands in mine, together we will stay
You made me better today
Better than I was before
And now my heart can rest and I will search no more
You made me better today, today, today

My heart has wings
Oh you take me away
And every prayer I've ever prayed was answered today
So I'm standing here, with my hand held out
Knowing that my love will never leave
My hearts on my sleeve and now I believe

And I wanna hear your voice in the morning when I rise
I think I know I'm just a normal man, only made of sand except when you're by my side
Will you love me, teach me, don't leave me I pray
And when I, and I'm thinking of the times
Your hands in mine, together we will stay
You made me better today
Better than I was before
And now my heart can rest and I will search no more
You made me better today

I stand proclaimed, true love is here to stay
I stand proclaimed, forever starts today
Today...
You made me better today
Than I was before
And now my heart can rest and I will search no more
Cuz you made me better today, than I was before
And now my heart can rest
And I will search no more
You made me better today
Today...
Made me better today.

Daddy, my husband will sing this song on our wedding day... hehehehe.. I cant wait !! Lol I know You will give me the desires of my heart, Thank You Daddy =] <3 !! in Jesus name,
Amen :p... !

Thank You Daddy =]...

You said, all is well, all is according to plan and life is unfolding the right way as it should. and I will put my trust in You that there is a bigger picture in all of these. Thanks Daddy, I love You and You love me so much =]... Take me deeper. In Jesus name, Amen.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Praise You in this storm...

Lord, I'm tired. Really tired. I know You are bigger than my problems. I have faith in You. I know that in this You are always and always in control and I know You will never leave me nor forsake me. But Lord I'm tired, really really tired. Take me away some place and don't leave me like this. Bring me out of this pit now. I'm very tired, frustrated and so sick of everything. Nothing seems to be going right. I need you now. But I will praise and I will praise You in this storm. For I have faith that in the end You will be victorious in my life. Thank You Daddy, You are an Almighty God.
In Jesus name, Amen.

Monday, September 6, 2010

A promise that comes by Faith =]

Romans 4:16-18 (New International Version)

"16Therefore, the promise comes by faith, so that it may be by grace and may be guaranteed to all Abraham's offspring—not only to those who are of the law but also to those who are of the faith of Abraham. He is the father of us all. 17As it is written: "I have made you a father of many nations."[a] He is our father in the sight of God, in whom he believed—the God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were.

18Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, "So shall your offspring be."[b]

DADDY !! You are THE BEST :D !! and I love You forever and ever !!! I believe in You and I believe in what you have spoken to me. But more than anything I wanna focus all of me to You and You alone :) !! Lord, I believe in what You are able to do and I believe You are more than able to do this. Guide me in my studies and I need a breakthrough in my career. I'm stressed out now :(.. But I know I have You and all things are possible. Love You my dear Daddy !! and I will not focus on the promise but I will focus on my promise maker =].. You are Most wonderful Dad !! You are Victorious !! LOve uu !!! In Jesus name, I ask that may Your name alone be glorified in this and through my whole life :) !! Amen =) !!