How many times do we seek others for help, counselling and comfort in the midst of our troubles? Most of the time? But how many of us actually cry out to God before we seek other ways??
Through my recent trouble God had really rebuked me... I have been a Christian for about a year and a half now... When I received Jesus and became a Christian, YES I have left my old life and YES I have became foreign to the worldly things that I used to enjoy.. BUT I did not realize that I still face my problems and lived just like a pagan... The difference is that yes I prayed more and read the bible more but when I am stuck in a situation that really frustrates me... I found that I still resort to the same things... and that is crying out to my friends, asking why did these things have to happened... and what was wrong in the things I did, etc.. Bottom line is I FAILED to firstly cast ALL my anxieties to Him alone (1 Pet 5:7)... I let Him be my last resort... I have let Him be an option...
And our God is truly amazing.. His love is everlasting and His mercy endures forever.. I had soon re-discovered my true reason for existence.. and that is for Him.. It doesn’t matter how many friends i talked to about my problems or how many solutions they have tried to advice me with.. I never felt content.. It helps but it never felt right.. Until I eventually depended on God and He changed my heart..
Why didn’t I do this sooner I thought? If I had then I wouldn’t have had to waste my time crying over the problem and letting the whole world know what I’m going through.. why did I fail to first of all pour out all my anxieties to My God, to the one who owns my life, to the one who I had said I surrendered my life to?? How can I say I surrendered my life to You oh Lord when a storm had come and I then shout out to the closest person I could get a hold of instead of fully relying on Him that He will protect me..??
I ended up being disappointed, things became messier when I tried to use my own strength.. And as soon as I asked for Him to jump in and take control out of my desperation, He was there.. He was always there for me.. He answered my prayers, He heals my heartaches, He listens and carried me through...
and even though the things that I had to go through was painful, He made me learned a lot from it. He had to take out the thorn to prevent it from seething in and eventually destroying me... It left a wound when He took out that thorn but that wound WILL heal... because He is the Jehovah Rapha, our God the Healer...
We know that in all things He works for the good of those who loves Him (Romans 8:28). And that verse is so true in my life today... doesn’t matter if the things that I had done were sinful that it was not according to His will... Because He will turn that against the enemy and make it become good.. It was like how Jesus was nailed on the cross through denial, betrayal and every other painful and sinful deeds that the people had done to hurt him BUT in turn God had made this His perfect plan... That through His death on the cross, we who believe in Him can be saved... We who are sinners can live and build a relationship with Him through Jesus’ death.
(NOTE: this does not mean that we should sin even more or we can freely sin, because if we know what God had done for us then His love would captivate us and keep us from continuing to sin. Also grace comes with responsibility!!)
Our problems may be big but our God is even BIGGER =] !! Our circumstances may not seem to be good right now but trust in His promises, His Word and His everlasting love for us!!
Matthew 7:11
"If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!"
Isaiah 55:8-9
"'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' declares the LORD. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."
Romans 8:37-39
“37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
And one thing that I realise, the greater sorrow I had felt, the greater the joy that I will have at the end of it =D!!
Psalm 31:7
"I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul"
Lord let this be my prayers that I may worship you with all of my life. That I will always be faithful and abide in all of your ways... You are my God and my King.. You are the ruler of my life forever and ever... I know that You are always and ALWAYS with me =].. and You are my strength and I love You Lord with all of my heart. Teach me Lord to always trust in all Your ways and make me able to do your will Lord.. Thank you Lord for the works that You have done in my life, in the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.
